i'll get there someday

Grace at 3 years old says "I want these ones mummy!" pointing at the brand new pointe shoes sitting in the ballet shop. The shopkeeper laughs and says "Oh you'll be buying them someday!". Unfortunately, that small but faithful ballet shop young Grace visited a lot to get new ballet shoes or a new tutu closed down. Along with it went Grace's motivation to someday wear those shiny new pointe shoes..

We all do silly things when we're young. We eat insects, mud, we fall over, we run in the road.. And that's because we just don't care. We don't have the knowledge of the big bad world to care about the consequences of our actions. So, when i gave up ballet, I didn't care that maybe later in life it would be the one thing I regret more than anything. It genuinely breaks my heart to look at my best friend and think 'I could be like her right now..', doing leaps, wearing amazing outfits, tiptoeing around, light as a feather, on my brand new shiny pointe shoes. I can't really blame my tiny little self for giving it up; my mum tells me I was like a fairy elephant! But now I have to start right back from the beginning again..build the technique, cascade through the levels until I've relived my entire childhood. It will take a long time, it will take dedication, but what else can one do? I'll get there someday, no doubt about it..I just wish that 'someday' was today.