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So.. here i am. Sitting in front of an empty page..-blog box- thinking..what do i write? Something that sounds.. creative, meaningful, happy, emotive? So..what can i say? Maybe you have to be in that frame of mind to write a good blog..or maybe you should just write from the heart? Write what YOU want to write. Say how you feel without sounding boring or depressing. But.. if you feel boring and depressing..then..why can't you write like that? Oh.. because you'll be judged. So how about we all put on a mask yeah? Let's all hide behind something we aren't so people don't judge us. Does that sound good to you? Well it doesn't to me! And facebook is a good cover up for a lot of people too..lets all hide behind a screen too shall we? I want to know real people, with a real personality. Not some fake act they put on for some other fake people. I'm fed up of that. And even though they can't see it, we can. (If you come in looking orange tomorrow i swear i will scream-.-). So.. thanks for being you- it was nice while it lasted shame its gone now.

Hear You Me..

And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
god wouldn't let it live..
May angels lead you in<3

M8s 4eva

Dictionary definition of "best friend'-
best friend
noun
the one friend who is closest to you

MY definition of 'best friends'-my best friends. the ones you can trust with absolutely anything. the ones who will never ever judge you on anything you do or say. the ones who will always be there for you no matter what. the ones that listens to your problems no matter how boring or irrelevant they are. the ones who will always give their honest opinion to you. the ones who's family is like your own and who's like part of mine. the ones who will drop anything to come and see you or help you. the ones that always knows the right thing to say and the ones who can make me laugh when i need cheering up. the ones who i can have the most amazing, hilarious memories with. the understanding, caring ones who i can always go to. the ones that will never turn their back on me<3 i love you all!<3

hey alice, sort ya life out!

i feel like alice from alice in wonderland.. not in a way you would expect though. i feel like i'm too big for the box i'm supposed to fit in. i feel like everytime i get close to having it right, to getting back on track..something else happens and i fall apart again. it feels like i'm cooped up in a tiny box and i need to find a way out but i can't figure out how to get out. i'm curious as to what happens behind my back, i get curious easily..i want to investigate into it and i end up getting myself into a bigger mess than i already am in! whenever i try to do something right, it goes wrong..and whenever i do something wrong, it gets even worse..somehow.
i guess another way to describe this would be like tangled headphones.. how annoying is it when your headphones get all mangled together? well i feel like i'm picking out knots and loops one by one, then just when i think i've done it..i find more, and end up making more..
so to conclude, i am alice in wonderland trying to untangle her tangled headphones.

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dont you hate it? when something is going SO right, SO SO perfect.. then BAM. its gone. its like your floating in your own little bubble, happy as can be, with no cares in the world, and someone comes and pops it with that sharp needle that can bring pain.
your heart sinks as you hear something that can tear you apart, no matter how small it maybe..it still hurts. you put on a brave smile and hope it will go away if you focus on something different, you blink back the tears so no one can see how you really feel. but no matter how hard you try, your feelings are still there underneath, and those tears are still there at the back of your eyes.. the more you put it off..the worse it will get. the more you think about something different, the more it kills you when you just give even a smidge of thought as to what happened. the longer the pain is prolonged the longer you let it go on.. thats right.. let it go.. can you let it go? can you let it go or just the pain? does pain have to come with it? i think the answer is yes it does..but can love always bail me out?

i want you back?

There's someone i know. Someone very close to me. Someone i've known for a long time. I don't know how but she's being taken over. By a monster. And i dont like this monster. I want her to go away. Her name is Ana. She's ruining one of my bestest friends. It breaks my heart but no matter how hard i try..she won't budge! I love this girl, my best friend, but slowly she is being dragged away from me, and i'm worried that there is going to be nothing left soon. Ana.. leave now. Give me my best friend back. The one who has her OWN name, the bright, strong, gorgeous, loved one. Please don't take her away from us..
p.s. there was never an elephant, there was always a swan. trust us..

One for the sheep!

What would you rather be? A shepherd? Or a sheep?

Would you rather be individual and have your own style? Or copy someone else and follow in their footsteps?

I know a lot of sheep, i have been followed by them, then again i have also been one.. i know that for a fact..

Unfortunately i havent found a solution to this annoying problem, please let me know if you do.

What's wrong with breaking out of the mould and trying something new? Something different and maybe a bit wacky? If everyone goes right..why don't you go left? Go on..dare ya.

Choices..

It's only recently that I have discovered, you always have a choice, nothing except yourself can hold you back. And it's only recently that I have started choosing carefully.. choosing what i feel is best for me, and no one else. But, what holds people back from choosing carefully and rightly? well, fear is one.. fear of rejection, fear of being hated.. being naive and stupid with choices.. then again.. what is choosing rightly? everyone has different and individual views on what they feel is 'right' take the 911 for example, the bombers actually thought they were doing right, they felt that they were serving their god! So, even though there is a set view on what is 'right' and 'wrong', no one but you can stop you from what you feel is right.

lets take it from here..

Hii.. i'm new to all of this so bare with me;)

well.. i never planned on having a blog, it's not really me.. writing was never my strongest point,but then a very close friend of mine got one, i read some of her stuff.. and thought, shit she's good. Then considered it, well.. it can't be too hard to write a few words..expressing how i feel in a discrete way? It might all go horribly wrong and i'll be the worst blogger in history! Or..it can go how i planned this whole thing to go.. let's see, shall we?