^^this right here is ruining our childhood.^^

'just be true to who you are'

it's so easy to say isn't it..it's easy to think about too..
but when it comes down to it..is it as easy as it's spoken?
i feel like i've had an epiphany (if i knew what it meant), i feel like on this average thursday evening i've finally opened the closed door and i'm taking my first step through to finding my way home.
but..am i? i'm not even sure where 'home' is for me..

is anyone ever completely content with themselves? i know i'm not.
there's always something with me..never nothing. but..who wants nothing to focus on? wouldn't that get boring? although it's not good to criticize yourself; being perfect is being imperfect.

maybe if i could take my own advice i wouldn't be writing this though.
i go on tumblr/we heart it/blogspot/facebook and everywhere i see great fashion sense, creativity, energy, amazing hair.. and each time i think 'i wish i was like you'.
i realise i've been trying so hard to be someone i'm not..or maybe it's someone i am or could be, i just don't know how yet; but it just gets me down every time because personally i guess i don't value myself as much..and i think perhaps this is why i look up to all these people. so it's like a vicious circle constantly grabbing my ankles and pulling me round..but there has to be an exit.
which leads me to my epiphany..
looking at old pictures always brings up memories; good and bad. and i saw some pictures of me from 1/2 years ago and i thought 'i actually look nice', for once it wasn't some one else i wanted to be..it was a past me. and it was back then that I was my own person, and it definitely showed.
all i need to work on is finding the path back to that person; which I know will be difficult but not impossible.